He has been treating me very cold lately. He used to send sweet messages everyday but now he just simply reply ok, oic and haha. And number of messages and calls dropped. I did ask him the why is he treating me so differently for the past two weeks, he just said that he was sick and didn't want to talk much. I believed him for that few days but recently he just got better and still the same treating me coldly. I kept asking for the reason and he finally said that he still want to play as in club. I'm fine with him clubbing but I still feel that there is still something going on that he's not telling me.
I really don't know what more I would do. Don't have the mood to work yesterday when I recieved his message at work. Trying so hard not to cry but tears just rolled down my cheeks. Thinking of a way to feel better and sleep well after work so I took panadols again. Like what I did when i was still in secondary school. Having the urge to take the whole box of panadol at one shot. But I didn't as I was still at work. I took 4 instead, by the time I my work ends, my hands and feet were ice cold. Body starts to relax but my brain didn't. I still keep thinking and thinking.
Reaching home, I thought I would just lie on bed and fall asleep immediately, but I just couldn't. I wasn't able to stop thinking.
Seriously I'm mentally exhausted. On the verge to breaking down. I wish and hope that we can go back to the pass 2 months when I was really very happy.
