drank some beer first, drank half a cup and felt like vomiting. maybe it's because i didn't had my meal. after some beer we had voldka. after that we went to the dance floor. the whole clubbing session i didn't really had the mood. i wanted to try and forget everything but i just couldn't.
i tried to be happy but in my heart i still felt very hurt and sad. why does it always have to end this way? i'm really very sick and tired of it. will my entire life be like that? i really hope i could really find some one that i love and love me and treat me good is that so difficult? yes, i know there are people that confess to me but i don't what i can do. in a state of confusion.
i guess u seriously didn't think of how i felt after you asked me to f off. u really have no idea how much u have hurt me. worse then having a knife stabbed in my heart. everyday i would still think of u and cry. i wanna go out and have fun, but when ever i'm out i just dun have the mood to do so. whenever i'm out i just felt like going home. everytime i'm out i just felt like crying.
i know everyone's concern about me but i really canot control my thinking now. i dun wish to thik about it but it always flashes in me mind. i'm really in the state of losing it.
